Confusion, Love & Lust

smtimes it makes me paranoid to know tt this blog is open for any random tom, dick or harry to read cos then i never know how much i shld be blogging abt. so nw, i have to think twice before hitting e "publish post" button and to write with discretion.

confusion. dictionary.com explains it as "disturbance of consciousness characterized by inability to engage in orderly thought or by lack of power to distinguish, choose or act decisively". it also describes confusion as "the state of being confused".
n tt's exactly what i was over e wkend - in a state of being confused.


so much has happened over e wkend n it's taking a toll on me. smtimes when things/situations are so emotionally draining, they wld inevitably have an effect on u physically n after 3 days, i'm physically drained too. i'm nothin but just a girl. i don't want e shenanigans, nor do i want e flourishes. honesty is all i ask for.

met rizal over e wkend to settle what was needed to n i don't know if i'm strong or just a damn good faker. haha. i like to think it's e former. now i truly know what e term "bittersweet" means. n tt's all i'm gonna talk abt it. for now at least.

on a completely different note...
i've asked u not to hurt me but u did. u said n i quote, "i don't want to ruin our friendship." yeah well honey, don't we all?
i've asked u to be honest, n u were.... a month later.
u were e last person i expected this from but now that it is what it is, there's really nothin else to do but walk away.
once again, i've been taught how to play e game. but i won't play it, not till i'm well n ready for it.

anyhoo, i nv really believed what they say abt men n women. women think with their hearts n men think with their lil frens. i mean come on. not all guys right? but recently, i came to realise that it's somewhat true! when i ask guy frens abt it, they juz give a non-committal answer that it's all A-ok cos they're "a guy/man".

maybe i'm naive like that, but REALLY?! what is wrong with u? it's not cool to use a girl as a sex object. aren't u juz basically telling e girl tt "hey babe! u're hot n sexy n that's all i see from u. i like u enough to want to have sex with u but u ain't really my type. fuck me?"
ok maybe not in so much words la but i'm juz going on a wild limb here.

so here's a picture that i think really sums it all up. hahha!

this is another cartoon that i found. before e second half of e sentence, e girl wld probably be, "thank god... i actually mean smthin to him!"
n when he finishes his sentence, "fuck. i must have been stupid to ever think i meant smthin."

hope u guys r having a great start to e wk! :)

*hugs*
nora